We're all floating in space...

Date: September 17, 2011
Time: 4:26 pm 
Currently listening to: "Do you realize??"- The Flaming Lips


I'm kind of lost. Now that the new school year has started... I feel kind of weird. I feel like I should be exploring instead of being stuck behind a desk listening to a professor drone on and on. I feel like I should being getting lost somewhere in a place where I don't know the language. Because I hate this. Not knowing what I want to do in my life.

That sounds emo doesn't it? I mean don't get me wrong. I love my friends here and I absolutely love my roommate (who consequently is my best friend. Yes, we did plan it.) but I don't know, I just feel kind of stuck.
Maybe I just need to rant to someone who will actually listen to me and not broadcast my feelings over the internet.

Here's a picture of a cute, fuzzy animal to make yourself feel better and my way of saying thanks for reading my blog:

Even if you don't like rats, you gotta admit this is pretty frickin' adorable. JUST LOOK AT ITS FACE!

Okay well, peace out.


"Finding some quiet time in your life, I think, is hugely important." - Mariel Hemingway

It's been awhile...

Date: July 28, 2011
Time: 2:09 am
Currently listening to: "The Call"- Regina Spektor 
Yeah. I know. I'm pretty bad at updating this whole blog thing. But, since I can't get to sleep right now I figure I give an update.

Summer has been going splendid. I got a job at a sporting goods store right down the street.
I know, me at a sporting goods store. But it's true. They hired my fat ass (which has been decreasing in size since I've been slowly starting to lose the fifteen or odd pounds I gained in college).

The Harry Potter premiere was absolutely fantasmagical! I went with my best friend, Danielle, and we ate Taco Bell as we waited in line for 2 hours. It was so worth it.

I've also been reading books that I don't know the ending already! It's great! I just finished reading The Help by  Katheryn Stockett. It's a tale about civil rights that are happening in the deep south in the early sixties. Two of the POV are two African American women who happen to wait on white rich families. The third POV is told through a young white woman who recently graduated college and wants to change the world. 


Okay I'm tired now, I have work tomorrow.


"Ah, summer, what power you have to make us suffer and like it."- Russell Baker 

Well, howdy.

Date: May 16th, 2011
Time: 2:35 pm 
Currently listening to: "Just Dance"- Lady GaGa


Well hey there. Sorry I've been busy. My first year of college is almost at close. That's right. Dead week.
Let me show you how I've been acting for the past couple of days.

Sometimes I'm like this:

Other times I'm like this from being so brain dead:

And the rest of the time I'm like:

Yay for dead week! Sorry my post was so short but it's video-tastic! You can expect a celebratory post on the 25th!

"Is this real life?"- David After Dentist.

Forever Is A Long Time

Date: April 29th, 2011
Time: 10:32 pm 
Currently listening to: "Pour Me Out"- He Is We 


So I've spent my whole entire Friday in bed watching Friends only leaving to go to the bathroom and go to my school's market to buy soup, Gatorade, and fruit juices. You see, I have felt like death warmed up for the past couple of days and I felt like it was appropriate to take the day off.

As I watched my roommate clunk her way out of the room to go to class. I went onto Hulu to watch the highlights of the Royal Wedding (I just wanted to see what her wedding dress looked like, honest to goodness. Which, by the way, she looked absolutely stunning. No argument). As the newlyweds climbed into that elaborate and British flags waved in every direction and bells chimed. A realization came to mind.

I will never be famous.

Now, I'm not feeling sorry for myself at all. It's just I don't see it happening. I had visions I would be shaking hands with Oprah talking about my book on the Bestseller but I don't think it's actually going to happen. I'm being realistic. I mean, I like my life now. I have an amazing boyfriend, friends who I wouldn't trade for anything in the world.

What I'm trying to say is,
I like my life, it's going good.

Congrats Will and Kate.

"All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better."- Ralph Waldo Emerson

I am so not ready for this....

, Date: April 27th, 2011
Time: 11:26 pm 
Currently listening to: ... You'll see. 


Please direct your attention to this video before I continue on with this post. Don't worry it's not Miley getting high on Salvia or Charlie Sheen saying giving birth is "winning".  No folks, it is SO MUCH BETTER THAN THAT.

HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART TWO TRAILER! As much as I am excited for this movie, I can't help feel a little bit sad. I think I mentioned this in a earlier post but I grew up with Harry Potter. I remember our second grade teacher reading the first book out loud to us in class while we sat down with our peanut butter sandwiches and pizza pockets. Then, just a couple years later, I remember standing in line with my family outside a rickety old theater in my handy dandy purple Harry Potter shirt with Hedwig stitched above a little breast pocket. He doesn't like to admit it now, but I remember my brother being absolutely OBSESSED and I mean OBSESSED with Potter and his gang (He hated the color green because it was Slytherin's colors and he named his stuffed dog Fluffy after the three headed dog that appears in the first book).

JK Rowling has created a masterpiece. She created a whole new world that children and adults can dive right into and discover the magic. People in my writing class hate Rowling and Harry Potter because how big the books are (I think it's on the lines of: the bigger the book the bigger the paycheck? Correct me if I'm wrong, but that's what they said). But look at it: 7 internationally bestselling books that have been compared to JRR Tolkien's Lord of the Rings and CS Lewis's Narnia, 7 (almost 8) successful movies, tons of memorabilia (wands, chocolate frogs, Bertie Bots Every Flavor Beans, robes, time turners, need I say more?), and A WHOLE FREAKING THEME PARK!

All of this came from A BOOK! An idea that someone manifested into a BOOK! I can't imagine writing something like that. I would be so humble and so grateful. Humble  in the fact that people actually liked my work and grateful that people would want to take it and make it great and turn it into what is like today. It just blows my mind. If I was JK Rowling every day I would wake up, look myself in the mirror and say

"Yes, that's right. You changed the world. You. Are. Awesome."

" It is our choices . . . that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities."- JK Rowling 

Your Songs Remind Me

Date: April 24th, 2011
Time: 10:58 pm
Currently listening to: "Swimming"- Florence + The Machine 


So first thing is first, Happy Easter. Hope you guys ate lots of Peeps and bit the heads off of innocent chocolate bunnies.

My weekend was okay, I guess. We had Friday off so I went home, even though I was only away for a week and a half it felt like I've been away from home for months. College is weird like that.

I saw two movies in the theater in two days! I saw "African Cats" with the boyfriend and then "Water for Elephants" with my mom and my brother.

Here is my opinion:

African Cats> Water for Elephants

I mean Water for Elephants wasn't THAT bad. I mean if you didn't read the book you would enjoy the movie. But since Water for Elephants is one of my favorite books (see blog entry: "Step One") I couldn't help but scrutinize and judge every mistake they made. But then again, the books are usually better than the movie. I do, however, appreciate the fact that someone realized the amazing-ness of the book and decided to make the effort to put it on the big silver screen.

African Cats was surprisingly REALLY good. It's a nature flick, following a lion pride and a mother cheetah with her cubs. I learned a lot more about lions and how cool they really are. And I also learned that cheetahs do not roar. They make more of a squeaky sound. Cool, right? YAY FOR LEARNING!

My Easter was alright. I got Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 1 on DVD from my loving mother. And then my boyfriend decided, ever so chivalrously, to give me his sore throat which I should have saw coming. Since he kept coughing right in my face and didn't bother to cover his mouth. But I was so blinding by love I thought my immune system would have the strength to carry on. BUT I THOUGHT WRONG.

I leave tomorrow morning to go back to school. Back to hell, more like it. Eauuuugh, why can't classes be over already? 4 more weeks!

"Good Idea: Finding Easter eggs on Easter. Bad Idea: Finding Easter eggs on Xmas." - Jack Handy

Pinch Me Gently

Date: April 17th, 2011
Time: 2:32 am
Currently listening to: "I Wouldn't Mind"- He Is We 


I don't know how to feel. I'm in a weird place tonight, mentally that is. I miss Portland. I miss the quirkyness. I miss the no sales tax. I miss home. I think I'm just exhausted and I need to sleep but I need to be hold tightly and told everything is going to be alright.

I just realized something.

I am terrified of getting old.
I'm just getting used to independence now, I couldn't imagine having to depend on someone like a caregiver to do things for me.
I'm terrified of not being to do things I can do now.
I love being young and having the world at my feet.
Am I crazy? Does everyone feel this way?
Or is it the two thirty-six in the morning and Emily should really be in bed thing?
Anyone?

"You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today. And then one day you find ten years have got behind you. No one told you to run, you missed the starting gun."- Anonymous 

We'll dance on the edge of the Hollywood sign

Date: April  6th, 2011
Time: 12:22 am
Currently listening to: "Tonight Tonight"- Hot Chelle Rae


Okay, I'm going to keep this brief because it is way past my bedtime.
I HAD THE INTERVIEW TODAY :)))))!
It went okay I think. Here is hoping I get the job. Other than that I am finally on spring break. Well technically it's not much of a break since I have a French midterm the Monday I get back (doesn't that just piss you off?). So yeah, I really should be studying but my brain thinks otherwise. Like, "Oh, there is a great big bed right next to you and it's after midnight. Isn't tantalizing? With it's warm covers and soft blankets?"

Yes, yes it is.


"Insomnia is a gross feeder.  It will nourish itself on any kind of thinking, including thinking about not thinking." -Clifton Fadiman

Waiting for the hint of a spark

Date: March 26th, 2011
Time: 9:21 pm
Currently listening to: People conversing in the University Center

So, I'm here on one of the public computers in the UC because frankly, I'm too lazy to pull out my laptop. Today was a no good, rotten, very bad, day. I guess it started off when I woke up at one o'clock this afternoon to the sound of what sounded like a jackhammer on cement amplified by a million zillion percent. Then I go and try to get some Tereyaki food for dinner and GUESS WHAT?! My card is declined and the bank system is down. AWESOME. All I can say is: one more week until Spring Break.

BUT I HAVE GOOD NEWS! I am possibly going to be an intern for a publishing company back home. YAY! My interview is sometime during break, so excited!

Well, since I've had one of those all time classic bad days me and my friend, Brittany, are going to "celebrate" with ice cream, chocolate, popcorn, and movies that I've checked out of the library. Yay!

"You see a psychiatrist... I don't want to see a psychiatrist... You should go anyway... I'M NOT GOING!!!" - Peter from the movie "Forgetting Sarah Marshall"

This could really be a good life.

Date: March, 12, 2011
Time: 11:07 am 
Currently listening to: "Good Life"- OneRepublic 


I don't know what to believe anymore. I really don't. I'm so sick of hearing about deaths that have happened to soon. We graduate high school, looking towards the future. Some of us are going to college, some of us are going to start a family, some of us will do nothing. No one expects to die. No one graduates thinking that their own body will turn on them and that they will suffer. Countless treatments and hospital stays. Having to eat gross hospital food (like that Jell-O that has fruit in it). I mean, if God really loves us, why does He put us thorough this? Can't we all die old and in our sleep? IS IT THAT HARD?!?!

Yeah I'm mad. Yeah I'm pissed off at the world. I'm just so upset. He was fighting so hard. We raised money and his sister ran a marathon for him. It's not fair.

RIP Danny Keagbine. I didn't know you too well. You were just a friendly face, walking down the halls at Valley Catholic. But your sister and I became close our senior year. She would always talk about you and how you were "her favorite" and "out of all my brothers Danny is the one I'm most closest too".  You will be missed.


"There's so many wars we fought. There's so many things we're not. But with what we have. I promise you that We're marchin' on."- OneRebublic

They Made a Statue of Us.

Date: March 10th, 2011
Time: 12:19 am 
Currently listening to: (500) Days of Summer 


I'm having major writer's buildup. I'm yearning to write. I'm craving to write. I feel like I can sit down and write 6940317 pages (well, maybe that's a slight exaggeration). But here's the slight problem....

WHAT THE HELL DO I WRITE ABOUT?!?!

The characters are in a fog right now. I can see their outline but no facial features. No personality. Nothing. The plot? HA. HA. I got nothing.

So I guess you could call it writer's block? Maybe...? Or maybe it's just the product of insanity that my mind brings me at 12:30 in the morning? Perhaps.

Back to Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Zooey Deschanel.

"It's love. It's not Santa Clause"- Tom from (500) Days of Summer

I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited.

Date: March 1, 2011
Time: 11:26 pm
Currently listening to: "Someone Like You"- Adele 


I'm supposed to be doing homework right now. Archeology if you really wanted to know. I'm just feeling... really down. This week. This month. Has been shit. I feel really overwhelmed and my plate has been full to the brim. And of course the domino effect. My social life has exploded and I'm trying to pick up the pieces. I'm always tired. I go to bed at an unreasonable hour and once I go to sleep I never want to get out of bed. I know, that sounds terrible right? OH LIFE! WHY MUST YOU BE SO CRUEL!? I know, I know, I know, it could be worse. I could have been born like Quasimodo.

"Walk far and carry a big stick" - Teddy Roosevelt

I'm rosy as a flushed red apple skin except I've never been as sweet

Date: February 15, 2011
Time: 2:50 pm 
Currently listening to: "Tickle Me Pink"- Johnny Flynn 


Valentines Day is probably my least favorite holiday. Yesterday was that day and I realized why I hated this Hallmark holiday.

I almost have the worst day ever on Valentines Day.

I didn't get to sleep until five in the morning that night since my heater decided to see how hot it could go. When I threw open the window my closet door decided to keep opening and closing with the breeze that was trickling in the stifling hot room.

When I rolled out of bed to go to class I noticed I had a package from my mom. It's a tradition for my mother to give me and my brother something red on Valentines Day. Usually the gifts are quite good. I mean, she doesn't give me diamond earrings but she usually goes out and gets something pretty cool and funky. Last year I got an Alice and Wonderland t shirt with the Red Queen. So I couldn't wait to see what's in the package for this year.

The front desk worker handed me my package and I tore it open right there. I looked inside, there I found... Work out gear. Completed with a bright red sports bra.

WORK OUT GEAR?!?!

See, I know my mom had good intentions buying this stuff for me. But ON VALENTINES DAY?!? While everyone is getting flowers and chocolates?!?  I know it probably sounds bitchy and I'm the scum of the earth for a daughter but seriously work out gear for a surprise? C'mon! That's like getting an old pair of socks for Christmas! So I feel really crummy and tired and shitty the whole day. With not getting enough sleep and knowing the fact I'm the new owner of a brand new red sports bra. And to make things better? I called my boyfriend to say happy valentines day. He doesn't pick up the phone or call me back. He leaves a generic "Happy Valentines Day!" on my FaceBook wall. I knew I picked a winner haha.

But like all fairy tales. This one has a happy ending. My friend is a music major. She plays the guitar and has a killer voice. She records her songs and puts it on YouTube. She texted me late last night and she wanted to me to do harmony on a song she wrote for Valentines Day. So as 12:00 am rolled around and the worst Valentines Day of my life was coming to a close. I sat there with one of my best friends laughing until tears came to our eyes. Wanna see our video? Here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5hQYgDlfmh4&feature=player_embedded#at=13

Have any worse Valentines Day stories than mine? You probably do. Leave me a comment and tell me about it. :)

"I don't understand why Cupid was chosen to represent Valentine's Day.  When I think about romance, the last thing on my mind is a short, chubby toddler coming at me with a weapon." -Author Unknown

I don't understand football....

Date: February 6th, 2011

Time: 4:40 pm

Currently listening to: The Super Bowl

The commercials are rolling and my team is winning (Go Packers!) so I thought it would be a good time to fill you guys in. Sorry it's been taking me so long to update. I found out there is actually stuff to do in Idaho.

My four friends and I drove up to McCall, Idaho to stay at my friends cabin. There was snow EVERYWHERE. Not like the flurry that Oregon gets it was ACTUAL LEGIT SNOW. When we went snowshoeing it was seriously up to my knee. And that was with snow shoes.

Anyway, McCall was actually a lot of fun. Last night we went to this place called The Activity Barn and we went night sledding. It consisted of getting an intertube, getting hooked up to a lift, and going down a slippery icy slope at a really fast speed. It was fantastic.

Tomorrow we head back to school to start a new semester (ugggghhhhhh) and it's back to the run of the mill. Getting up early, homework, work, etc. This week was much needed to just hang out with my friends and chill. I hope we do this again soon.

"That's why her hair is so big. It's full of secrets!"~ Damien from Mean Girls.

Ida What?

Date: February 1st, 2011

Time: 11:32 am

Currently listening to: Television

So after a long and tiring month of class, I finally get to go on a vacation. Yes, that's right, vacation.

My friend invited me and a couple of friends back to her home in Idaho and it's my first day here.

We just woke up and now we're watching "Say Yes to the Dress". I can feel the estrogen pouring into the room.

More tomorrow.... I just woke up. haha

"Behind every great man is a woman rolling her eyes"- Jim Carry

I'd forsake them all for your sweet kiss...

Date: January 21, 2011

Time: 12:07 am

Currently listening to: "Boots of Spanish Leather"- Bob Dylan

So, here I am. In my friend's room. On her laptop. Listening to her music. Updating my blog.

I officially have no life.

This week has been really stressful. I've been constantly tired and hungry. With no motivation to do anything. Wait, I take that back. I guess it hasn't been stressful. I'm just lazy.

So I'm still swamped with my one and only class I'm taking this month. We watched a really good movie a couple of days ago and I recommend it to anyone. It's a French foreign film and it's set during WWI. It's about a girl whose fiance is deported and assumed dead. BUT she knows he's not dead because if he WAS dead she would KNOW! So she goes all around France to track down soldiers who were in the trench with him and get information. And she does all of this crippled with polio. She's amazing!

Oh, the movie is called "A Very Long Engagement". Just thought I would mention that slight bit of important information.

Okay... Well... It's 12:35 and I have a presentation tomorrow. ON THE SIXTIES! I get to talk about Woodstock, drugs, and The Beatles. Mmmm bliss.

"I've got to admit it's getting better. It's a little better all the time." - Paul McCartney

Ramblings of the mind....

Date: January 13th, 2011

Time: 1:04 am

Currently listening to: "Do It Like A Dude"- Jessie J

Drawn on/tattooed eyebrows really creep me out. What is wrong with normal eyebrows? And the whole half natural half drawn gives me the shivers too.

I don't know. Just a thought.....

(blogger is being screwy again. awesome.)

"I don't mind making jokes, but I don't want to look like one." - Marilyn Monroe

And we’re two birds of a feather then the rest is just whenever

Date: January 11, 2011

Time: 4:41 pm

Currently listening to: "If It's Love""- Train

Sorry I haven't been updating. Nothing really has been going on. I'm glad to be back at school. I'm only taking one class and I actually get to read books! We read Candide by Voltaire, Native Stranger by Eddie L. Harris, and now we're on to Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf? by Edward Albee. And it's only what.... The second week of January? Yay for reading a book a day!

Tonight will be interesting. I have to do my first assignment for this class (besides reading). The theme for this class is journeys. First assignment? Go and venture forth on a "journey" that makes you feel uncomfortable and awkward. What makes it even better? Go by yourself.

I've decided to go to this "We Love Jesus" thing that's on every Tuesday night. It's called Ignite. I'm scared shitless.

I was raised in the Catholic faith my whole life. I'm confirmed and all that jazz. But my family isn't really what you call religious. We go to church when we can and we follow the sacraments but we're not the kind of family that will sit around the dinner table asking "Where did you see God today?" There are no crosses or pictures of Jesus Christ hanging on our walls. My father never quotes the Bible when I ask him for advice and my mother never listens to Jesus music.

Gahhh. I'm so nervous. I'm so scared that they'll try and convert me. I don't want to be mean and throw something right back at them. But if they try they'll leave me no choice. Me and God are pretty good right now. I don't want anyone to tell me otherwise.

Wish me luck....

"Born again?! No, I'm not. Excuse me for getting it right the first time."- Dennis Miller.

If Only Time Flew Like A Dove

Date: January 3rd, 2011

Time: 12:10 pm

Currently listening to: "Hallelujah"- Paramore

First blog post of 2011. A new start. Thank God.

After a very stressful and a lot of waiting at JFK me and my family were able to board Flight 165 to Portland, Oregon which was a miracle. Thank you guys so much for your help. I appreciate it.

I go back to school tomorrow. I still need to pack but right now I'm gonna go on a walk.

Peace out.

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending."~ Maria Robinson.